Ahhhhhhhhh the terrible twos

Well as you well know I have a five year old- but I think we are just evolving into the terrible twos :( Robert tells me it will be a year to year and a half of this non stop screaming, ranting, foot stomping fun.....God help me! Things are going well at the Freeman/Hazlip household- getting all settled in and unpacking. Lucas is testing limits as new rules are being(or trying to be) enforced here, and much to his chagrin I might add. Alas mommy is happy and therefor Lucas WILL be happy! I run this house, by golly, not the five year old! Well if I keep telling myself that it may be true, right???

Rough, rough day...............

I knew there was a reason I waited until I was over 30 to have a child..................God knew there was no way I was ready for one a moment sooner, especially since he knew I would have Lucas :) He is my sweet baby boy, but today was one of those days that make you wanna run, run away as fast and far as you can go. He woke up at 3 and did not go back to sleep until 630, slept until 8, then I forced him to go to school until 12 as I had to go to work, and then I tried to get him to take a nap after school.
Well anyone who knows my son well knows that he has not napped but about 5 times in the past 2.5 years, so that = a sucky afternoon! He cried, threw fits, screamed, had meltdowns (for those who are not lucky enough to be around an autistic child- meltdowns are like tantrums but nothing can be reasoned with or disciplined to stop it- has to run its course), and was generally very unhappy with mommy ALL DAY LONG! Well he was fine as long as he got his way, but everytime he was told no or it is not time for that he freaked. Keeps this up, we will be going to the dr. tomorrow to rule out rottenness vs. illness. So hard to tell sometimes.
On top of all of this I am missing my honey terribly, and hate to see him so stressed with his own stuff; sometimes I hate to dump my stress onto him or anyone else :(
Yes, I am throwing a small pity party- no one is invited- just me.................I just really hate autism some days more than others, and today is one of those days. If he could tell me what was wrong, I could try to fix it. If he was able to say my tummy hurts or I am mad it would make it easier to get to the source of the problem. When I can't figure it out, he just gets more frustrated. I went to work today for new teacher orientation, and I met an overly bubbly teacher who is teaching second grade and asked what "Theme" my room was going to be in?????? Theme???? I am running on 3 hours of sleep and she wants to know if I have a theme???? Geez..........told her no, hadn't come up with one yet. Trying to catch my sanity right now :)
Anyway thanks for listening, hoping for a better day tomorrow, and for now, I am enjoying listening to my son sleep blissfully in his bed........... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

So excited I can't sleep!

Ok so here goes some nauseating talk..................I am up, 2 am, can't sleep- why? Because of all the great things going on this week- so much to do-until I get to be with my love everyday! Robert, Lukey and I spent the day together Saturday while he worked on replacing boards on the porch and I worked on entertaining Lucas and it was such a nice day :) Lucas wanted to be outside watching him use the saw and cut boards- everytime he used it Lukey laughed. Surprised me- I thought that it would scare him. Never know with that boy.
Getting geared up to move next weekend! Going out of town with my girlfriend Emily Friday and Saturday, coming home, and getting moved on Sunday!!! People are asking me if I am nervous and my answer is NOOO! Ready? Yes!!!!!! I want to say- why would I not be ready? I have been looking for this man all my 36 years and I finally found him- so yes I am ready!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life- my mom, sister, Mimi, friends, and of course Robert and Lukey. Those two men make my world go around and I am thankful for that each and everyday.

Pictures from July 4th- AKA engagement day :)

Well July 4th will never again be just Independence Day, or Jill's birthday- it is also the day that my sweet wonderful boyfriend proposed to me :) It is a moment I will never forget and will cherish always. I had a house full of people and as I can only post a few pics on this blog at a time everyone is not on here (mom- I am talking to you!!!) So no hurt feelings- just able to post a few. So very happy and excited about the future!

Happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish and you shall receive??? I think so :) My wonderful, awesome, fabulous, caring, understanding, patient, loving, thoughtful, and incredibly kind boyfriend proposed to me on my birthday!!! Of course the answer was yes! I could not believe it! Yes we had discussed getting married one day, and we are going to live together within the next 2 weeks, but the proposal was a complete surprise!!! He wrote will you marry me in my birthday card and made me read it aloud to everyone there- very sweet! I am so glad that my friends and family were there to share in the happy event and have memories with me that will last a lifetime.

So to my wonderful Robert- thank you for loving me the way that you so, accepting Lukey and I just as we are, and wanting to truly and lovingly spend your life with us always. Words can never express what your love means to me. I can't wait to be your wife :) XOXOXOXOXOXO