Another nice day

Hi there everyone-

Well I got to do lunch with the girls today that was so much fun :) Emily, the new baby, Rebecca and I at Olive Garden for lunch was fun- except them ragging on me for switching boyfriends this week! Oh well- they just don't know................ but they are great and supportive none the less. I got to spend a lot of quality time with my boy today- he was in not the best of moods- really tired from all his late night partying. He was super grouchy from 5-630 and I could not stand him any more so he went to be early. He was asleep by 7 so lets hope this sticks.
Spent more time this evening with Mark and Lukey- it went very well. Lukey warmed right up to him like I figured he would and it went well. It is so nice to see them together again. And for all you nay sayers out there- I think this go round is something totally different- it is so great to have this relationship back in my life. I don't think it is because it is new or we just missed each other- it really feels as if we both grew and that we both appreciate each other so much more. The time apart was a good thing I believe. I am so excited about the future!

Lukey pooed on the potty (and other shitty news!)

Yeah Lucas! Oh did we have a potty party last night! I have been putting him on the potty at night before his bath for about a month to get him into the swing of things there and he has been doing great with #1, but #2 never until last night. I did not even realize it until he was in the tub and I started seeing suspicious floaters in there with him. So I checked and low and behold- he pooed on the potty! I raved about this like some crazy woman on a game show that won a million $$!'s. He looked at me like I was nuuuuuuuttttyyy. Oh well- I should be used to that by now :)

Well in other news, I ended things with the new guy yesterday- I am determined to not settle and I felt like I was settling already with him. He put everything and everyone else in front of spending time with me, and at first I thought well he is just busy, or this came up or that, but after two months I started to realize that I needed to be more of a priority than that, and not trying to sound like a Loreal commercial........... I am worth it! So I met him for lunch and we did not eat but just talked and I explained to him that I was not happy in our relationship and that I needed more than he could give me; I also told him I had unresolved feelings for my ex. He seemed to understand and we parted on good terms so I am hoping we can be friends.

So I saw Mark last night- he came over for pizza and catching up with Lukey and I- it was wonderful. I had one of the best evenings I can remember in a very long time. It felt so nice to be in his arms again and to see him interact and love on my son. It melts my heart- I am truly optimistic and hopeful that this time around, after some time apart and soul searching that has been done, that we can work things out. I love him so much and I am thankful to have another chance with him.

Oh me....................

OK so life for me would not be normal without a little crazy thrown into the mix- so here it goes.......... things with the new guy are not working out quite as I had hoped. He is wonderful- a nice caring man, great dad, etc............. only problem is he is too nice. He never says no to anyone except me, regarding who to help or spend time with. He is so busy and never says no to his ex wife, his son, his friends, his co-workers; he is always helping someone and doing something that keeps us apart. I felt on the bottom of the list in my marriage, and being on the bottom of a list after only 2 months- that is not a good sign. I am going to talk to him today (as it is already Tuesday, albeit 4 am, but nevertheless Tuesday) and tell him this is not working.
Why is it not working? well like I said before the lack of time spent together is a major factor, but the main factor is unresolved feelings for my ex boyfriend. We ended things about 3 months ago and I have been missing him terribly- we talked last night and it felt really nice to hear him again. I am doing some deep thinking- I know watch out!- I will keep you all posted.................

The devil made me do it.......................

OK- for those who keep up here- lately has been hellacious around here- lots of meltdowns, lots of limit testing, etc. so when Lukey woke with HORNS in his hair I couldn't help but laugh :) He actually had 3 of them in his hair- does that imply more devilishness than the norm??? This is Lukey before his "coffee" (or first sippy cup of milk for the day) so he looks a bit rough- but I had to take some pics to show the evidence that may help explain some recent behaviors..............

So we are trying to mix up his routine a bit to make him a bit less rigid and so stuck in a routine that if it varies at all he freaks out. Mom watched him the other night and I forgot to tell her a couple of things that set him off and we talked about how this makes it almost impossible for anyone to keep him other than me or Mark. Well I have had about enough of this autistic 4 year old running the show! Time for Mama to be in charge! I am when it comes to big things- like going to school, going to bed, going to therapy even when he doesn't care to go, but I have been known now and then :) to give lollipops to lower the noise level!

Well he may be in for a rude awakening but I mixed some things up today and he did surprisingly well with them. I am going to keep his main routine the same but change up little things that used to be a must like swinging in not one but 2 swings before leaving or entering the house. It gets exhausting- but so does hearing meltdowns that last an hour. So I will keep you all posted as to how he and I adjust................

3 more weeks of school left until Summer II is over! Yeah! I may have to take a comprehensive exam around the same time so pray I pass it! Then I start back to school August 24th- same day Lukey goes back to school!!!! Only 33 days left till he goes back to school- but I am not counting, not really..............

Oh Suzannah.....................

Cry, cry for me................this is Lukey's new song. Oh yes- he sings it all the time, at midnight, 300 am, 500 am, all day......... you get the gist. He has been singing this for days and I could not figure out what he was talking about because all I could understand was Cry cry. He was so frustrated with me but you know, that is the only word out of about 200 in the song buddy! Anyway I figured it out and he seemed thrilled and looked at me like Finally the dumb old broad gets it! So we have been watching it over and over again on one of his videos.

We are going to attend a new church this morning in Lumberton that a lot of the other autism moms attend that we know from school. I hope Lukey likes it- they have a special needs class there similar to the one we have been attending at Calvary.

So things are going well in my little world- staying crazy busy this summer- started a night class that is on Monday and Wednesday nights from 530-930- YUCK!- so far not so bad. The course work that is- the class................boring! Oh well only 3 more weeks. Mark has been watching Lukey for me on nights I have school and he has actually also been watching him other nights too- I think Hell just froze over! Watch out, it may since he is being so nice. But not to worry, he is still an a$$ so some things don't change.

He informed me that his new girlfriend of 2 weeks does not want him to "allow" me into his house when I drop off Lucas...............WTF I say!!! She has some nerve and he has no spine if he lets her dictate like that. When he informed me of this, I said Oh ok we will stand out here in the 100 degree heat with Lucas to discuss his day if that is what you want....................... geez. I ended up coming in- what she won't know won't hurt her :)

Anyway so glad I am not in a jealous relationship like that- my man is wonderful and makes me very happy- I just never get to see him as he has his son a lot. He is a wonderful dad and I wish I could see him more- oh well if I am patient I will get to see him everyday one day I hope. His son has been having a little trouble adjusting and spending time with his dad and I; he is not really keen on sharing him. I hope this will get better over time- he is a great kid. Squeeze your kiddos tight today- tell them you love them- a close friend of Pete's lost his 20 year old daughter last week in a car accident and it has shaken everyone who ever met her to the bone. You never know what God has in store or when he will take you Home- so give thanks for what you have and love the ones your with :)

Another post for today.........a video of dance moves

So I had to try and post these smooth dance moves by Lucas- he is all white I am afraid.

Oh it takes so little to make him happy.............

Ok so I go to Target today and look in the $1 bargain aisle for junk to appease my wonderful son....... thank goodness I can get him a new set of bath numbers and make his day! He loves these things- they are foamy material and stick to the wall when wet- he already has one set of numbers like this that are bigger, but a new set in a different font and shape are always GOOD. I will be the luckiest mommy EVER if 10 years from now he is still thrilled over $1 toys- not holding my breath on that one. He never plays with traditional toys- just numbers, letters, and that is honestly about it. So Christmas gifts ought to be easy this year! I tried so hard to get a smile for mommy picture but all I got were these perplexing What the ???? looks :) Oh well- I tried.............

On a more somber note, found out that a close friend of Pete's died in a car accident. It was a co-worker's daughter that was only 20 years old. I met her on July 4th at a get together that night and she was the sweetest thing- she was in a one car accident yesterday in Bmt. and it threw her from the car. She died early this morning- please keep her family in your prayers. Hold on tight to the ones you love and don't let them go............ we never know what tomorrow will bring.

Tugboat Island Splash Park = FUN!!!

This is the 2nd time we have gone to Tugboat Island in Pt Neches- boy does he love it!!!!!!!!! We are a little sunburned today but soooooooooo worth it. He had such a great time- he cried when it was time to leave- even though we had been there almost 3 hours.

See the picture with the arms out behind him- he does this everytime he is around water. He scoots back up to it and tries to get his hands wet and nothing else. It cracks me up. See the picture of him catching the water coming straight up from the ground with force? Well he decided that it would be a great idea to put his face over that, and he ended up so choked on water that he puked! I saw "the look" and we ran to the edge of the water park and almost made it to the grass............. so I ended up cleaning that up with baby wipes- good times, good times. Oh the things we mommys do.

He is feeling much better since starting an antibiotic on Wednesday for another bladder infection so we are going to have to see why he keeps getting them. This is the 2nd one in 4 months- so after the Rx is completed we are heading back in to get it checked.

Well I start class #2 at Lamar on Monday night- a little nervous/excited about going back to an actual classroom- the online class was nice cause I could so homework sans bra and in my PJ's :) Do you think I could do that for classes AT Lamar too :)???? Maybe not- but it would be nice.

I survived my first class back at Lamar!!!!

Hallelujah- I am done with my first class at Lamar! I was so nervous about going back after graduating 8 years ago, but I guess making straight A's is something that just sticks with ya ;) It was an online course and it was relatively easy. The next class starts in about a week so I am going to enjoy this week thoroughly!!!
Lucas is still not acting quite right so I am starting him on an antibiotic the dr. gave him yesterday. We did a urine test and she checked him head to toe and no obvious answers as to why he is acting so rotten. I hope he gets back to his old self soon- I hate when he cries so much- my nerves really hate it too!

Happy 4th/ 35th B-day to me!!!!!!!!!!

Well I am officially getting old............... if you are 35 you are considered old when considering having a baby over this age, your eye sight starts to crumble, metabolism out the window...... yada yada yada............. but you know what? I think I am happier right now at this age and time in my life than I have ever been before. So my waste line can stretch and my eyes can go- I don't care because I am so happy.

So here are some pics from my birthday party. The pictures of Lucas and I are BEFORE the party really started. He sensed something was up and he was going to have to share me because about an hour before the party he hung on me like a monkey! He was very clingy and as soon as people started to arrive he fell apart. I so wanted him to be at my party, but for future reference I think it may be best to have him there a short while then whisk him off to a quiet place like daddy's house. His dad was actually helpful and nice and watched Lucas all afternoon so I could enjoy my party and so Lukey wouldn't have a nervous breakdown at 4 years old :) It all worked out well- we all ended up having a great day.

OK so the pics are: Mimi holding baby Andrew Allen- Chris and Emily's new little man; Jan and Emma, Rebecca, Andrew and I, and Pete and I. And of course Lukey and I............ but yall already knew that one :) Pete and his son Chris came over for about an hour so he could meet everyone- he was a hit. He hit it off with the guys talking cars and with the ladies in being so nice to me, Lucas and being such a doting daddy. I think he may be a keeper.

Anyway I had a great day yesterday- got lots of phone calls, cards, emails and texts wishing me a happy birthday- it was a nice day all around.

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